Saturday 1 April 2017


Trafalgar Square, London - Picture above was taken 5th of January. Aaand... it feels like yesterday. It is 1st of April as I type this post. I still can't get over the fact that three months have passed! There are so many things happening in the background and it's all good slash challenging times. I can't think of a better way to put it but my heart is bursting with thankfulness every day. I can say hand on heart that these are the best days of my life.

If you told me years ago that I can go to the gym three times a week, eat healthy and see results. I'll probably laugh at your face. Most of my life, I am always the chubby one and don't get me wrong, I've enjoyed my life then. I just realised that personally, being fit is better. I feel lighter (though I'm still in the process of achieving my ideal weight and that's okay) and I no longer look at my body with loathe. Instead, I feel comfortable that this is where I am now and the journey continues today.

It's not easy but it's doable. First thing I did was to understand what my body needs (good nutrition and movement). I realised that there are foods that we are just conditioned to eat and we can make a healthy shift. Before, I thought that this whole healthy lifestyle thing is depriving but the opposite is just true. If I'm being honest, I feel like sh*t after eating one whole plate of pasta and cheesecake loaded with sugar. I can't point my fingers on it like why do I feel irritable, etc. I've learned that the food we eat has a chemical effect in our body. It feels so simple but it's liberating. If you'll ask me if I still eat un-healthy food like croissant and chocolates, I'd say YES. But I'm trying to compensate it by eating more greens and eating in moderation. Looking back, what brought change in me is when I became fully aware of this fact: That I only have one body and I don't have a spare one. Having said that, I should be kind to it and take care of it.

I am not a fan of change. My friends will tell you that. I'm change-averse in so many ways. However, life. And me settling in London is a huge testament that indeed, most of the time, everything you want is at the end of your comfort zone. I'm currently in transition and as with anything that involves change, there's an element of uncertainty. Last week was so stressful for me! I was in the brink of crying because there are so many things going on! Thankfully, things are getting clearer now bit by bit. I remember this picture below because this was where my picture was taken last year and even then, I was undergoing some change and it turned out well! One thing I've learned is we all need to have a centrifugal force. To me, that is GOD. It may sound weird but having a relationship with GOD is a huge part of me. It's a misconception that all Christians are weird or overly religious. Pretty much like all things in life, it's a matter of choice and belief. You like coffee or you don't. You're a vegan or you're not. This world has more than its fair share of judgmental people, let's not be one of them.

Everyday matters. Each day, we should have something else to look forward to. You owe it to yourself to be happy. Enjoy all the relationships that you have. Give a sincere compliment to your colleague, send your mum or dad a loving message just because, cook something hearty for dinner and enjoy it with your loved one. Life is fleeting, we don't have forever yet it's a taboo to talk about how finite our time on earth is. Point is, do what your heart desires. You know what you want and you know how to be where you want. The answers and excuses lie in you. Personally, I hope that when I'm in my golden age, I can look back in hindsight and tell myself that my life may not be perfect but I made the most of it. -CMK


1 comment

  1. I agree with everything you wrote on this post. I also have an ongoing problem with my weight. I've been gaining and losing weight for the past month. I hope to see more blogs about tips and practices of you losing weight.


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